The inevitable .... feeling low....

I am going through a bit of a difficult time after three IVF cycles and one miscarriage in February 2016 - I am 43 years old - pregnant again but currently going through a threatened miscarriage at eight weeks (with a slow heartbeat and the fetal pole has stopped growing at six weeks and two days). I am going over to NHS today to have a scan but I know the inevitable. I am feeling very low and trying to cope with confused hormones and the reality of no more IVF and a future without children. I know it is best to take one step at a time but going through a miscarriage and waiting for the heartbeat to stop is so hard especially when it is looming yet unconfirmed. Would be ever so grateful for anyone who wants to connect with me. Thanks.

[Ellen6]

So sorry to hear about this. Sounds heartbreaking. I don't know what words I can use to help you. Just that I am thinking of you. X

[Hidden in reply to Ellen6]

Aw Ellen6 I really appreciate your thoughts thank you. I will be okay but it is hard at the moment. Just have to give it time.

[Ellen6 in reply to Hidden]

No problem. How did it go yesterday? Thinking of you

[Hidden in reply to Ellen6]

Hi Ellen - the ultrasound confirmed no heartbeat and continued arrested growth - which is what we knew from the last scan. I feel temporarily releaved to be able to take things to the next stage and to move on.... but we are very sad and low and each day brings a rollercoaster of emotions. One step at a time. How are you?

[Ellen6 in reply to Hidden]

Hi MovingOn. So sorry to hear. Really thinking of you. This must be so traumatic for you both. An unimaginable pain. I hope you are able to get some counselling at some point. Big hug x

[Tinya]

Thinking of you and sending you a warm hug.

[Ellen6]

How are you doing now MovingOn? X

[Hidden]

Hiya .... thanks for caring that's really sweet. I am cool ...: a few days of pain and then clarity.... then pain.... and I mean emotional pain.... and depression and then I am okay. I am having counselling and it is really helping. I have no idea if I want another IVF session, in fact I cannot bear the thought of it right now. So we are living life, having fun and really getting to know our feelings. I am back to work two days a week right now, for a lovely charity. Life goes on. If I cannot have children then so be it. How are you?