Hi all!
I'm so relieved that I've found this website/forum. I've looked for years for something like this!
I empathise with you all having read some of the posts on here..my heart goes out to you!
I'm 49, 50 this year and still I feel the pain, grief and devastation of being childless. I just don't think it will stop because for me it's not just about feeling these awful emotions but something much deeper..it's a part of me..a massive part that has left me with an empty soul. I have spent years trying to find a purpose to my life without the child/children I so so wanted but still I fail to find one.
I threw myself into work, working long hours and 7 days a week if I could to keep myself busy and to try and distract myself from my torments. I also thought my achievements/satisfaction at work would hopefully fill the massive gap that needed filling in my life..unfortunately it didn't!