When will this end?

[Redblood]

It's gotten to the point where I don't even know what happiness or any sort of joy or peace even feels like anymore. I keep asking God everyday to take my life, to not let me see the light of another day anymore. I've got cuts all over my body, they don't hurt as much as they did when I first started doing all this, what hurts is knowing that someday I won't be able to stop myself, I won't be able to fool myself into thinking that it's gonna be okay because I know it's not, it's only getting worse,I'm only getting worse. I don't feel alive anymore so I don't think I even should be.

[Dolphin14]

Redblood

It sounds like you need to seek some professional help. Do you have assist hotlines where you live? Do you have a therapist or someone you can reach out to?

We are here to support you.

Can I ask that you put a trigger warning on your post?

🐬

[Vonus5591]

we can only talk to you but you need professional help please call hospital

[Blimeyohriley]

I’m sorry it’s so tough for you. Please, please seek professional help. Life can improve. I used to wake up every morning upset I hadn’t died in my sleep - I had no joy and much emotional pain. Finding my way out of the abyss took a good therapist but unpicking it all made sense eventually. Sending you love and hope you find relief from the pain.