Seriously Struggling

[Bootspug]

Hi,

I am really struggling with depression and feeling like I would be better off dead. I’m having major issues at work where I disagreed with something that the management said and now they have created a hate campaign against me to ruin my career and reputation. I cannot get over the lies and the nastiness that is coming from them. They have closed ranks and got other staff onboard who I once considered friends, which is really hurtful. It had been the most obvious of setups but they are covering lies up with more lies. I know I never would want to work there ever again but their lies could ruin my whole career and everything I have worked so hard for and I would never be able to do the job again. I’ve worked in the profession for nearly 20 years without ever having a complaint and suddenly after I disagreed with management, in one afternoon I had loads of complaints from staff members. I cannot stand to read what they have said about me because I have panic attacks and it really upsets me. I’m on antidepressants, I can’t sleep and I feel isolated. I am scared to go out incase I bump into anyone from work because nowadays you are guilty before proved innocent and the lies they have told about me make me sound like a truly horrible person. They have totally destroyed me mentally, I don’t recognise myself. I have started to cut myself again which is something I haven’t done for 24 years and I hate myself.

[Rupertthebear]

I am sorry to hear what is happening to you . You didn’t mention what you do and how old you are . I assume you have some disability and that is why you are in this website. Unfortunately if you don’t tow the line with management they don’t want you is quite normal . Either you can use the company’s complaints procedure to write to management of your grievances or organise a meeting with management and take somebody with you to the meeting .

You must not hurt yourself for other peoples behaviour . I saw a very good link to a video somebody sent which I will send the link to you .

Also you cannot control a lot of things in life like the people at work etc that’s really important to understand and if the atmosphere becomes too unpleasant why do you want to stay there? I would move to a new job and be excited !

Take up watercolour arts and watch some movies or go for a walk displace these negative feelings . We all at some stage go through bad times but it’s not because we are bad it’s because we don’t necessarily agree with other peoples perception and they don’t want to listen they create the stress but you must remain calm and accept they have the problem .

[Hidden]

I firmly believe truth will win. Just reverse comments they make and name them instead would be revenge. But if you don’t want revenge just act like nothing happened and that will really get to them. That you are strong and they can’t put you down or get to you. Or get another job

[Fraggy]

I feel for you and having gone through similar situation many years ago I know how deep it hurts. Just to clarify I wasn't in a high end job so my livelihood or career was not marred. Nevertheless it was horrible and there was no way out but to leave. I knew it would be a useless battle and a waste of my time to try and be heard.Unfortunately it sounds like your co workers are following like sheep and that may be coz they are scared to speak out of turn and thinking of their own careers.

You need time to heal and take care of yourself. Please don't cut yourself honestly they are not worth it. You on the other hand are. My advice (I know you didn't ask for it ) don't read their comments you have enough pain to deal with. You know yourself better than them and your truth is what matters.

I really wish you well

[Hidden]

I went through something similar over thirty years ago and ended up been retired out after on Disabled Retirement I have never worked since thenLike in your case it was a case of looking for a whipping boy and I was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. I am seventy now and I have had an interesting life although been chronically Disabled.

I am really sorry for you and the situation you find yourself in now and it is really difficult to work out the best way forward for you, life can be hard if someone is sticking the knife in your back and no-one has the guts to tell you the main reasons for your problems

It is not worth considering suicide I tried and failed and the hospital did not really understand or care about the reasons. I had been taken in by ambuance and had to get the bus back home in early morning so I learned my lesson and never tried again.

All I can suggest is talk to your Doctor and explain the situation. In my case all it did was cause a lot of fiction in my homelife, You will however get over any problems you are having at work, you can also look for another position in a different Company. I worked within a company where my job was very specialised and at that time there was very few companies around I was able to join. Mind I have had a long retirement doing the things I want to do not what I was ordered to do,

BOB