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[Dragon3695]

I went to the office here where I live to tell them I will be moving out by October 1st. My mind has been going haywire and I have just been a torn and twisted bag of emotions today. After the last fight with my best friend, I was finally able to see all the damage I have caused to our relationship over the past year. I know the move is something we both need but I am so scared of moving out on my own because after all the damage I have done while she was constantly fighting with me to wake up, open my eyes, and see all she was ever trying to do was be a true friend and help me out as much as she could and I fought her every step of the way. Now the damage has been done and there is no going back. I wish I had done everything differently and been more consistent with the effort I put into changing myself to be a better more healthy of me. Now I am living on pins and needles as I wait to find out if there is anything left I can save of this relationship with her. Either way I know it is my fault and I will live with the consequences of my actions for the rest of my days