Sometimes I feel like it’s something more

[StevenB22]

Sometimes I think there’s something different with me, some mental condition that hasn’t been discovered because I’ve been told I have depression, severe anxiety, OCD, Bipolar and just none of it makes sense to me, no matter what medication I’m given I never feel better unless they make me numb. I’m not sure whether I have all of them or just something that hasn’t been found. Nothing works, no medication, no self help, no therapy so I just don’t know anymore. I don’t do drugs so it just doesn’t make sense to me, nothing does. Sometimes it feels like everything isn’t real and that I live in a delusion, I’ve been told I’m delusional but it all is real to me. I just don’t know how to tell my psychiatrist how I feel when I don’t even know how I feel anymore. It’s all going downhill and I’ve been showing more psychotic symptoms everyday.

[cbonne846]

StevenB22,

I've been in a similar situation where it seems like I'm not getting better and the medication isn't working. This has been a time where I've needed more support from family, friends, therapist and psychiatrist. I try to avoid hospitalization but sometimes it seems like the only solution for a medication change or to keep me safe from myself. You may have to consider that, I believe there's an issue with your insurance but if you pay the hospital $10 a month they will accept it. What matters is your safety.

[StevenB22 in reply to cbonne846]

I live in the UK so I don’t have insurance and I don’t have to pay luckily, I’m just getting more psychotic by the day and I don’t have a therapist anymore because I’ve recently turned 18 and I have to be reassessed in September

[cbonne846 in reply to StevenB22]

Be proactive and make some phone calls even if it's for 10 minutes to get a new therapist. Make a goal to do this and then feel proud that you reached the goal and that it's part of being an adult. Let me know how it goes.

[Missy_D]

As you live in the UK, you should try googling Single Point of Access (home county). If that doesn't get you anywhere and you are struggling to keep yourself safe (mentally or physically) then call 111 and they should be able to help you. You shouldn't have to wait until September for a reassessment for adult services if you had them as a child.