A very difficult week

[Zelda123]

I’ve got bipolar 2 general anxiety childhood adhd acrophobia and suspected autism.

I’ve had the week from absolute hell. I had started on a new diet plan and was doing great.. then I had a women’s monthly cycle from hell.. it was that bad I cried in pain.. ended up in bed.. and my emotions were everywhere.. horrendous .. I went to the dr she suspected a early miscarriage .. anyway the bleeding stopped And started again.. I went to the walk in centre and had an examination was told I had cells from my Fallopian tube in my cervix that were causing the bleeding.. and that I had a lot of discharge in my womb to get checked for other infections..

So she really hurt me .. “ cleaning me out”..

I couldn’t sleep at all at night as the day I had seen the dr two receptionists were talking about a women who died of sepsis after a infection in her womb.

So that has been stuck in my head.. and I’ve obsessed over it..

So the bleedings started again.. and I hadn’t slept at all.. I had a really bad night ..

I went to sexual health clinic.. had a load of tests and then had a massive meltdown at the clinic.. where several nurses has to calm me down.. I went into a proper melt down I was in tears.. all my tests were negative but the nurses were great..

so that night I got a good night sleep.. but while I was relaxing in the garden next door starts playing rave really loud and I had to go in the house..

My bf tried talking to me but my eyes glazed over and a scene set before my eyes of me going mental.. throwing bricks through their windows and killing them..

so I said to my bf I’m not well.. I’m going to lose my temper and I can’t.. so we had tea watched the chase.. and he left to walk the dog..

I blew 90 quid gambling .. and my head went west..

my bf took me out for a drive but I think everything has got on top of me..

I see the mental health team next month regarding my meds..

I have a nurse that visits me at home for well being ..

I’m also struggling with chronic fatigue and pain.. so I can’t burn off my manic episodes anymore.. I’ve been like this for the last 4 years..

I needed to get it all out as I felt like I could have gone mad with anger .. I needed to get it off my chest

[Dolphin14]

Zelda123

You've been through a lot. I'm sorry for all your suffering. Sounds like your bf is very supportive? That's nice to have someone appreciate and care for you.

Def get your meds looked at. But remember our hormones play a huge part in our emotional rollercoaster ride. Maybe you will feel better when your hormones regulate.

[Zelda123 in reply to Dolphin14]

I agree my hormones do need looking at and the drs won’t test them 😞

[Suzie40]

What a week! And how unprofessional of the receptionists to be talking about the lady with sepsis - no wonder you're feeling anxious. I used to have horrendous periods, until I had a hysterectomy six months ago. That hasn't really helped my mental health, but it stopped the monthly pain and bleeding.

I hope you're feeling a bit better now?

[Zelda123 in reply to Suzie40]

You wouldn’t believe this but I’ve not caught a flu virus from my mum.. it never ends aye 🤒