Please don’t read if easily triggered

[Malumaf]

So today is the two year anniversary of me surviving my suicide attempt, but no one knows it cuz no one even knows I did it, and today I’m just looking at my life and it’s just ten times worse than two years ago and I didn’t know how bad it could get, and I’m just so overwhelmed and alone and all that “do something you enjoy to cope” just doesn’t work like no matter what I’m stuck here with my thoughts and it just feels like this is something I’m never going to escape no matter how good life is

[amandagray]

stay strong i truly believe you are meant to be on this earth!! right now it may not seem that way but it will one day and if you are feeling similarly to how you felt two years ago please seek help from a professional. you are not alone i have been in a very similar place as you. it will get better💕

[Malumaf in reply to amandagray]

I am currently seeing a therapist it just feels like I need this daily support that I can’t get

[Stilltrying_ in reply to Malumaf]

I'm glad you are seeing a therapist. I know what you mean about getting daily support though. In the UK i phone the Samaritans 116 123. I find them extremely helpful. You can call each day and its a free call. Gemma

[Malumaf in reply to Stilltrying_]

That’s something I wish I could have, I live in America and I was using the crisis hotline but they limited the amount of times I can talk to them, I found an app that might work called 7 cups, hopefully it helps me cope, I wish the US had a resource like that where I could call everyday

[hypercat54 in reply to Malumaf]

I am on 7 cups of tea as well and find them cathartic. However don't even mention suicide coz they cut you off straight away and suggest you seek professional help. This is because they are only volunteer counsellors but it does help to have someone to ramble on too. x

[Hidden]

i can relate very much. (however, i have not made a suicide attempt)

have you ever considered getting stronger support? like a residential? inpatient?

[Malumaf in reply to Hidden]

I’ve thought about it but because of where I live and my age, there’s no residential or inpatient within about 6 hours of me, and I’m starting a new job soon and just I never feel like I can or it’s bad enough