Upset.

[arty40]

I've suffered from depression/bipolar disdorder for many years and it has left me doubting my own feeling/emotions at times. I drank at times to cope with the dark thoughts and when i moved home 1 year ago and the neighbour was in aa and took me under his wing i thought finally something positive and i opened up.

Today i hear him talking to guy who says" I'll go in when he's out cold" as in come into my home when i have drank enough to pass out.I don't so much feel angry just now as hurt and betrayed and don't know how to approach the subject. It's as if when you have problems some people feel as if they can do or say what they want when it comes to you.

I'm at a loss for exactly how to explain how it feels to hear people take advantage of you in duch a blatant way and think its ok.

[Stilltrying_]

Yes that's really bad and insensitive, like they just don't care at all. Maybe they've been just so worn down by life themselves that that to them is an "acceptable" way of behaviour? It sounds very low down if you don't mind me saying.

Very sad that people think and act like this I agree. You need to have respect for yourself I guess as many people won't have that respect for you. Sorry about what has happened. I would be very upset myself indeed. Gemma x

[lucabella]

Do you know anyone else from AA? Have you any numbers? Maybe reach out to someone else.. good luck

[arty40 in reply to lucabella]

Im going to other meetings away from where i was going before. Thanks for taking time to reply

[Hidden]

Hi arty40!! I don't blame you for drinking, although it may not be the best way to cope, it sure is effective and pretty fun (at least until it wears off lol) I love to go have some drinks and dance. Although I am just a social drinker, if I wasn't allergic to alcohol (I get bad migraines) I'd be the biggest of them all.

It is so easy to bond, especially over drinks. I've made so many what I call "bar friends." They call it Happy Hour for a reason LOL.

It must be hard to deal with this. Sometimes, especially we are blinded by depression and/or a personality disorder like being bipolar, (as am I, my mania is shopping, I have a bad addiction) we can open up and trust the wrong people. I have done so before and paid a high price for it.

It must have felt nice at first, someone who was there for you, who tried to (seemingly) help you and with whom you had something in common with. I can only imagine how hurt and betrayed and disrespected you must feel.

Sometimes we make the wrong judgment call (all of us); know that this is in no way your fault; this signals dysfunction on HIS part, not yours. I am not going to give advice on how to handle this as I know that you are not asking for that. You are very much so validated in your feelings and to be dismayed at this situation.

I have been blatantly disrespected by many women right to my face simply because (in their eyes) I was somehow a thereat because of my looks. (I am a former model, however I do not usually tell people that and as far as I know, none of these women knew that about me as I do not brag and never mention it) It's really amazing. I read a book about social mannerisms being on the decline and I definitely see that today. I have been assaulted a couple times even, just out of the blue, and harassed. It is very hard to cope with and I have PTSD. Needless to say, I bond with men much more well?

Stay strong my friend, there are a lot of messed up people in the world. I know what it is like to constantly doubt myself, and doubt my judgment and for it to be "cloudy."

I am working on resilience as I am not a natural and also, mental strength and clarity of mind. Also, I am working on assertiveness. I hope it helps just knowing I am here for you.

Diviny

[arty40 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks diviny123 just hearing what you have to say def helps