Today I feel like such a failure. I went to work being a housekeeper in a hotel, something I did when I was a little younger, well after only 2 days I get told that the head lady is afraid with my back and neck that's she's afraid that I won't be able to keep up, that she was told that I didn't like the job and therefore thing's just won't work out. I can not find another job, I hate housekeeping (she was right on that) I want to do retail but no one seems interested in me. I have no true friends, I lost the best friend I ever had over something stupid, I apologized even though I did nothing wrong, I only said she don't text or call anymore and she is willing to throw 40 years of friendship away. I feel like I am a big nothing and honestly wish I could go join my husband in heaven. The only 2 people that really care if I live or die is my son and daughter. I'm so over this life without my husband it just means nothing anymore. He was a truck driver so I never really had to work. He's been gone almost 7 years and it still feels like yesterday. The man in CA that owns my house wants me to show more income and honestly that's the only reason I want to work. I'm scared we may lose this house and then we'll have no where to go. I'm just very depressed over this life and have nowhere to turn, I keep praying but seems to do no good. I just want thing's to change.
Depressed to long and now worse - Mental Health Sup...
Depressed to long and now worse
Hello diamond47m
Thank you for your message. I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. Keep thinking of your son and daughter you really have been trying hard to cope with so many difficult times . Can you tell us more about things perhaps?
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and best wishes
diamond47
I too had major losses in 2013, my Dad & Uncle to Brain Cancer, than grandpa...2014 my sister was diagnosed with Brain Cancer (she is still fighting) I too have not been able to nail down a job in since 2008. Has being a Caregiver ever crossed your mind? Its the one job I had where I was able to forget me and concentrate on someone who truly needs you... amazing feeling to help others real moral booster. Good Luck