Hi again
I was on here last year with my depression but seemed to get on top of it. I have had a massive lapse and it’s getting bad again. My family tell me how awful I am and my friends have ditched me for no reason . Work is becoming too much and I’m angry and drained all the time. My relationship is tough and i honestly feel so lonely . I have nobody to talk to but Iv just absolutely had enough
does your family know your going through it if not tell them. Did you isolate from your friends, thats what I do. If your jobs to much put that on hold, finances dont mean ....when your mental health is in trouble, get some support, Exercise may help with your anger and energy levels 30 mins a day, hope your partner supports you, loneliness can be good in a way, pretty much ground zero for your mind, overthinking, worried about others, worried about people think, future, past, beat yourself up sort of....suicidal thoughts its a....up mess, even worse when it turns into a cycle, its absoulte choas. Thats when you get over life. ive been there tons, i reckon theres no magic cure for depression, i know, Ive done everything, it comes it goes. just got to survive it like a soldier, its the hardest thing in the world. your a tough nut for choosing this life thats why your going through it, youve got the strength to endure it and even more when you come out the other side, the potential to make absolute magic happen when you destroy this experience with depression/anxiety. If only you knew what awaits you when you beat it. You deserve the bestest loving experience ever. it will come. All I can say is balance it, find something that works for you, counsellor, meds, GP, Healers, books, this website, hotlines, etc. Explore absolutely everything, there will be one that resonates with you. as long as that axe is swinging everyday you will chop down that tree. Meditations not bad, yoga, even the spa pool or suana, looking at the stars etc soon as you wake up and let it control you it will ruin your whole....day, u dont want that, u dont want that turning into a everday thing as well life goes by and you notice it, that gets really scary. the more you feed it (and its a hungry ....) the more it spirals out of control. u say to yourself Man this is the worst I have ever felt. When you say that about 10 times in your life time Your a .... gangster U shouldnt even be here alive haha. But I survived it and still going through this god forsaken curse. i hope this all makes sense and wish you well on your journey. Your here for a reason the devils trying to derail your mission. I know you will succeed I know I will to. Peace and much love to you man 
That’s such a nice reply thanks mate
thank you too, we are all here working as a team, we are all one family I need you as much as you need me. Its all about the LOVE I know thats how we will conquer it..
Sorry but I'm struggling here to try and comprehend why someone would call a family member with depression 'awful'. How unsympathetic of them! When I fall out with my family, or if they just upset me, it makes my mood spiral. I suppose not having a supportive partner just adds to your anguish. May I say that you're wrong to think you have no one to talk to. There are plenty of kind, caring and friendly people you can talk to on this site. People who, when they say they 'understand', actually do!
Hi Rossoliver1990. I am sorry to hear things are so difficult for you. Other members have posted some supportive replies. Please be reassured that you are not alone. It would be a good idea for you to make an appointment to see your GP to discuss how you are feeling. He/ She will be able to provide some help and support. Take things one step at a time and things will become easier. Could you talk to a trusted family member about how you are feeling? If you are in the UK and are feeling distressed, please call--
The Samaritans Freephone 116 123 [24 hour helpline] 7 days a week
If you are outside of the UK, please have a look at the Crisis Helplines section on the pinned post section on the screen. Please keep posting on this caring supportive forum. Thank you and best wishes.
You are not alone, I have been feeling like this too, turned to friends for help and got told if I didn't cheer up they would just leave..but I feel either angry or upset most of the time, I have a bit of a temper but I can keep it in check most times but getting worse. Just want things to be easier and just fed up of fighting with everything. There will be a way through find someone to talk to, posting on here is a good step!
What changed since
Last year ?
Why are you're family feeling that way about you ? Have you done something to upset someone
Regarding work - was upsetting ?
An what's the reason for you're angry ?
Is something causing it / or someone making you feeling that way ?
What makes you happy in life / an something you enjoy ? An doesn't stress you out ?
( try an do more of it )
Regarding Angry fitness does help - for example going to the gym or running
Have you spoken to anyone about the way you're feeling or your own GP about this ?
fed up
Depressed fed up.
Fed up of living 
