I need help

[bryce1456]

hello- My name is Scott and I'm 18 years old. A few months ago I went through my first "move" of my life. I moved from Southern California to Hawaii for: college and my parents wanted to. I never wanted to move out here. My life was so perfect in California I had a great job, amazing friends, and just an overall perfect life. I currently live in the dorms at the university and my parents live on a different island. Moving to Hawaii has been the worst thing I've ever had to go through. I've been having to figure out everything on my own, whether it's college or just learning out to be an adult. I've met friends but a few of them got girlfriends and it's been awhile since I've really gotten to hangout with them. For 4 months I've basically been smoking weed, entertaining myself with technology, and finding new music to listen to. I've always been a healthy guy and I do find time to get outside and get some excersice every once in awhile. Lately I've felt like I had no other options than giving up. I've developed these , painful, burning sores in my mouth and it's just put me over the edge. I've never thought about actually killing myself (honestly taking your own life in my opinion is stupid) but I'm starting to think I have no other choice for happiness. I miss my life so much and I have absolutely no reason to smile anymore. Please somebody help me I've completely given up on my life.

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Please Scott hang on in there.

Maybe try and speak to your parents?

People care for you, things will get better.

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Killing your self will only make you come back and do it all over again..its like a video game, once your out, you go back to the start...secondly, get off the pot..and tell your parents what's happening to you..nothing wrong with figuring out things on your own..wish I could figure things out for my self..good luck

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Hello scott so sorry to hear this at such a young age.. do your parents no how this has affected u ? Unfortunately smoking weed may have it uplifting effects to begin with but then it does start to interfere with mental health especially if u are alone but i can see u will want to escape reality im 42 an ive been there, not anymore iv quit some months ago an i am feeling alot stronger now but not on my own with the help of beta blockers, u must try to speak to your doctor but also i done alot of reading self help books on positive thinking ino it wont help with the loneliness or isolation but if practised it can help with controlling your thoughts and feelings maybe its something u can try too also u mention u worked back at home is there a job u can find where u are now to keep u busy in your spare time perhaps join a gym maybe u can make more friends in these places, perhaps not but do try to to read self help books cbt positive thinking etc u could help yrself if u could change yr mindset, keep in touch with yr friends back home as much as u can an perhaps think of moving back to california when yr uni is over if your not living with parents by then surely u could move back to your old life an regain yr happiness i do wish u luck stay strong kiddo🙂