Help needed for motivation to get going in the morning ( say I'm going to do something and don't do it )

[TammTink]

I have depression and stress , I was ok for a while - and for the pass 6mths I don't want to talk or do anything. I have a wonderful family (ups and downs as all families ) , but don't care about myself and when I look in mirror I hate myself. I have no motivation to nothing ( caring for self or family ) I rather sleep. Does anyone feel like this and has anyone felt like this and got themselves out ?

[Frozenimages]

Hello Tamm,

I just recently joined and have been searching for help as well. I have similar feelings as you are talking about. I will be sitting there and I think to myself, what's the point of keep going on. This pain is too much. I can't shake it, I can't talk to myself and make it go away, I have no support, no help, nobody to turn too. I just want to hide away from my family, go in the bedroom, shut the door, turn the lights, and ignore the world. These days it feels the darkness is going to swallow me whole. It's hard to function, it's hard to put on a "happy" face for work and people outside, so they don't know the truth that inside I'm crying and hurting so much. I hide it from family because I don't want them to worry or see the hurt.

I use to feel utterly alone and felt nobody understood. Then I found forums like this. I have been posting on another website bpdfamily.com. A loved one suffers from this disorder and it part of the reason I feel this way. I started connecting with people that were going through similar situations. I vented on my posts, spilled out every negative, hurtful, all my emotions and feelings. I was surprised that the replies I received were of understanding and compassion. Judgement free. People that were going through what I was. I started feeling less alone and hopeless. Knowing there were people that felt the way I felt. Then I started listening to motivational speeches, looking up self compassion writings, positive thoughts.

I do understand that sometimes this isn't enough. Sometimes medication is required to help stabilize imbalances. I'm not a doctor or therapist however. It is possible to get yourself out of this cycle of negative feelings. Keep reaching out for support and guidance. Post on here to help let go of those bad thoughts. We are strong people. Someone else pointed out that by the end of the day, we only have ourselves. The fact that you are searching for help to pull yourself out of these feelings shows that you are making steps to get better. Keep moving forward, no matter how slow you feel you are going.

[TammTink in reply to Frozenimages]

Thank you