I really am sorry to post about this topic so frequently, but I'm just currently freaking the fuck out over dying. Like someone put up an RIP pic on Instagram and I just went crazy. I got so scared. A million thoughts started running through my head. About all of it - how I'm going to do, will it hurt, will I see it coming, will it be peaceful, will it be soon or later in ny life, what happens after, and trying to comprehend not "being" anymore. Currently going to take a Xanax to call myself down but anything that has to do with death is a trigger. A gun on tv, an RIP post, a gone too soon post.