hi, I'm very new to this site, so please bare with me, I have had Bipolar now for the last 20 yrs.plus ulcerative colitis.
I was medically retired from my job , 7 yrs ago, and have a 2 grown up kids, my Son is married and lives away from home.so its just me my Husband and 17 year old daughter,
I have only just plucked up the courage to tell her about my illness , because my sister thinks she is old enough to know, my mood can change from full of life one day to staying in bed the day after, and this can go on for weeks .Last . week my Daughter was away so it was just myself and my Husband ,he doesn't understand mental health,and he is not one bit supportive, he will come home from work, open the oven door and" say whats for Tea' I get this rush of panic then try and make something,. When I come around eventually, I tell him I don't think your very supportive , but because he has still stayed with me and never left me, he thinks he's a good husband.
I have quite a close family, who are supportive, and are constantly telling me to come to their houses for a few days, please don't think I sound ungrateful because I'm not, but at the end of the day this is my home, but they are constantly telling me you don't get support at home !!
Even now today he is working, but when he comes home I go all tense start thinking what I'm doing and making, but cause he see's me dressed , I know he is thinking 'She is coming round now'.
Its such a cruel and heart breaking illness, but I accept now I have it, and try my best to cope,but just don't want to disappoint family, because I want to stay in my home!!