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Aitch56
Aitch56

Gosh where do I start? I am almost 56 and have landed with a large thud on the scrap heap of life. I have been on anti-depressants for about a year now, which at the beginning were a big help, especially with my hot flushes. (menopause). Too much has happened in my life since April 2015 when everything changed and went downhill and I find myself unable to cope with all the changes. Some days I wake up and think I look okay and I feel positive but most mornings I wake up and think 'oh gawd, another day has dawned'. I find it hard to leave the house. I would rather just stay safe at home and not have to see or speak to anyone. I am trying to find a job, which is fine when I feel upbeat but when I feel miserable and low everything becomes such an effort. Even eating. I thought about telling the doctor but she wouldn't be able to do anything constructive and anyhow that means making the effort and getting out the house which I really cannot be arsed to do. Not today anyway.

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Hello I am so sorry you are going through. this, it really sounds hard I am here if you want to talk. I hope you will start to feel better do you have any close people who could listen and support, the thing about illness is you need friends. I too struggle with getting out and low self-esteem I am sure your a truly lovely person who deserves tot be happy please keep going and look forward to better things

Aitch56
Aitch56 in reply to Hidden

aw thanks Newto for taking the time to reply. Yes I have a good support network, but they don't always want to hear me constantly moaning and complaining. There are plenty of people who have it much worse than I do and I feel guilty for feeling miserable when I have a roof over my head, food in the fridge and no serious health problems. But depression can bite and sometimes it just won't let go.

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How are you doing better I hope😐

Aitch56
Aitch56 in reply to Hidden

feeling okay at the moment, thank you

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