Gosh where do I start? I am almost 56 and have landed with a large thud on the scrap heap of life. I have been on anti-depressants for about a year now, which at the beginning were a big help, especially with my hot flushes. (menopause). Too much has happened in my life since April 2015 when everything changed and went downhill and I find myself unable to cope with all the changes. Some days I wake up and think I look okay and I feel positive but most mornings I wake up and think 'oh gawd, another day has dawned'. I find it hard to leave the house. I would rather just stay safe at home and not have to see or speak to anyone. I am trying to find a job, which is fine when I feel upbeat but when I feel miserable and low everything becomes such an effort. Even eating. I thought about telling the doctor but she wouldn't be able to do anything constructive and anyhow that means making the effort and getting out the house which I really cannot be arsed to do. Not today anyway.