Depression... :(

[reb12]

I'm not usually one to join these online things, as I don't feel like they really help. However, I'm at the stage where I can't think of any other ways to help. I've been diagnosed with depression for around 3 years now, and have tried a few medications, and CBT, and many other ideas, but nothing is helping. Each time I go to the doctor I'm told to try something else, and give it a month, but I just can't bear to wait another month for something to possibly work, or possibly not. I'm so fed up, every day feels like a week, and I dread waking up knowing I have to struggle to fill another day before I can go to bed again. Family is so supportive, and try to understand, friends are useless, and completely don't understand (which I get, as I don't entirely understand what depression is so can't expect everyone to understand fully). People keep saying that it will get better, but i genuinely can't see this anymore, as there has been no improvement. None.

I'm exhausted from trying to fight, and can't believe that this is really all there is to life. Why is there not a better fix? Why can't there be a quicker solution or medication. Surely this isn't normal?

Also, if one more person tells me to "think positive" or "listen to happy music" I am going to scream....

Reb12

[Satsuma]

Oh dear, sounds like nothing is helping you .. I certainly do not want to make you scream .. Just have a read through posts on here and see of there is something that could possibly be of benefit to you .. You never know

[sweetiepye]

Hello Reb , If you get any help at all it will probably be from a fellow sufferer . The standard medical treatment , anti depressants and therapy, seems to be pretty hit or miss. On of the problems is there seems to be degrees of depression , some seem a little more than sad and some in a pit of black. Doctors don't have a lot to offer. So where does that leave us? There have been some on site who have recovered and some who are noticeably better. I think there is hope. The one thing I have noticed is that people who keep a journal of their feelings and activities seem to do better. You get the therapy of writing and a map of your triggers. Over time you should see a pattern and get some clues about yourself. It could be a start toward recovery. I believe the answers lie within yourself and with some very hard work you will find your way. Pam

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Hi reb12. I suffer from depression & have been given several drugs. I also have schizophrenia & I have check ups regular to see my psychiatrist. He is treating me for both illness. Maybe you should be referred to see a consultant just not your own doctor. Tell your doctor you would like to see a Psychiatrist.

[Violetixo]

It's okay to feel frustrated when people say, 'I'm here, trust me, everything's gonna be okay'. People can relate to you, people do care. I'm sure you have a bunch of people who care about, you've just got to realise who cares and who doesn't. It's okay to feel like you're going to give up, it'a natural. But I'm sure there are people out there who can help you, just look for the signs. Maybe write down your thoughts, like a timeline? Keep track if your mood swings change suddenly, and write it down. When you have mental/nervous breakdowns, just focus on one thing. It's okay to struggle, it shows you're strong enough to go through it. It will get better, not tomorrow, or next month, but it will. You'll eventually find someone who makes you happy, who can fix you. Then everything will be okay. Just keep holding on. The improvement may not be huge, but I'm sure it's healing, slowly. You may not see the improvement, but it will get better, over time. You have people around you who care, who try to help you. Try to let them, it may not be easy, but talking to people does get it off your mind.