Mask

[shine1800]

Have so much love to give that I would love to share but, I am living under this mask ashamed scared, showing my vulnerability to anyone so, my love goes wasted and very lonely and isolated

This loneliness burning me slowly

[Hidden]

Hi it sounds like you need to tackle your issues rather than letting them overwhelm you. Are you having any counselling at the moment?

You need to allow yourself to be vulnerable in very small ways at first with people you trust. Then gradually show a bit more when you feel ready. Don't forget everyone gets hurt at times but if someone hurts you it says more about the other person than it does about you.

Find something you like doing ie dog walking, voluntary work, evening classes or join a group who share similiar interests. You are the only one who can change things so get cracking and you will be less lonely. Loneliness feeds on itself.

[shine1800 in reply to Hidden]

Hi Lilaclil,

I have tried but things always go wrong with me, since I was 9 years old. I suffer from anxiety and depression BPD, moved from Suffolk to London to get help and easy way to commute to see my family across the channel.

I have been offered a treatment for three days a week but since I been here my flat been burgled I couldn't keep my three days a week sometimes my anxiety is so bad I couldn't leave the flat not even get out of the bedroom, so they won't help me and discharge me like a cold turkey. Now been intimidated and bullied by gang activities around my state by the same people that burglar my flaI don't know anybody in London. saw my housing officer about it but they are doing nothing about it. I feel discriminated but I feel hopeless

[Hidden]

How awful for you. It sounds like you live in a rough part of London. Some of those estates are appalling. Is there any chance you could rent somewhere else? Stay away from estates though if you can.

Or could you move back to Suffolk or even go and join your folks? I don't think you can be any worse off than you are now so any change has got to be for the better.

[shine1800 in reply to Hidden]

It's awful, but I can't do any of the above, I have applied for a transfer waiting for an answer at the moment but always hard to take, day in day out knocking on the doctor's door to get the treatment I need.

Would be nice to wake up with the one you love and say everything it's going to be alright

[Hidden]

Well good luck then.

[shine1800 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks

[Justmetoni]

We are all here to not make you feel lonely. I feel lonely akot until I talk to others on this. I hope your okay

[shine1800 in reply to Justmetoni]

Thanks