Update.

[Rae98]

The doctor basically f****d me off. I told her I was too scared that if I'm alone I'll harm myself. What did she do? "Let's make an appointment for two weeks time to see how you're doing." Like seriously? Does she not realise I might not be here next week?! I'm now out of options. I don't know who to go to.

[Chris76]

Thats not good but go to the doctors again and see a different doctor!! I know when I go back I won't be seeing the same one as he was a complete waste of space!!

[secondhandrose2]

Sadly there are few options available due to cuts in resources - getting an appointment with a two week gap is more than you would be offered in many areas - I know it feels inadequate but it is the way the NHS is now. If you feel you will harm yourself seriously then go to A & E and ask for a psychiatric assessment. x

[alamagoosa in reply to secondhandrose2]

The doctor should have taken action. No excises.

[CarolineLondon]

The docs aren't the only options Rae, look online for groups where you could discuss how you feel in person or charities that help you with councelling. I'm sorry about her attitude but don't let that put you off. Try again, you have opened up now, don't lose that. Be brave and move forward slowly. Ruby Wax does some wonderful talks on you tube, see if you can pick up the odd skill. You are a smart person you can do this and you are worth it. Even if you inch forward it is movement forward and be reeeeallly kind to yourself while you are low and poorly. This will pass and you can do this Rae I have complete faith in you. XXX

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But to be fair Rae what can the doctor do? She can't arrange for you not to be alone unless she thinks you need to go into a hospital immediately. Is that what you want? To be in a psychiatric hospital? I would certainly go back before 2 weeks is up though if you feel you need to. Also don't forget A and E if you are in crisis. It's not much but unfortunately it is all the NHS can offer these days. x

[jue1]

Hold on Hold on you have many options you just cannot see them - currently go back to your GP in two weeks like she said and calm yourself down. Also you should give up the full picture of your problem so we can support you best we can.

Jue1 calm down

[alamagoosa]

The medical profession has become a business with a system. It has become a bureaucracy. And human beings have not changed . We are human. The mental health system is now like a factory. And patients are treated like products on an assembly like. I understand how you feel.

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Hello

College work has been a big problem for you, so how are you getting on there ??

The use of sleeping tablets are only recommended for short periods of time and generally they really knock your concentration for six and this will not be helping you as their contraindications can work against day time activities.

Sometimes when we threaten to harm your GP will sometimes call you out on that if they feel you are trying to go for her attention and use it too beat her over the head with it.

When I was at college I was very much like you, I could not keep up with the class as my lectures where all Science Subjects and Associated Mathematics. Basically I was not educated enough at that time and was in a way one year missing caused by my birthday as I had lost a year of my basic education when at school. This brought about a deep depression as I was also been bullied by a class of adults who should have known better. That made me feel a failure and a dunce, the class picked up on that.

You said that you had been put into an underachiever class,are you still there,or have you moved on ??. I realize sometimes when lectures are missed or you have failed to understand the lecture, sometimes we can become frightened to admit this in class, and the whole problem will escalate and eventually we drag behind the class. It used to really affect me when at home I could not remember what had been discussed and would be unable to do my homework. We had generally two to three hours work a night and again I would fall behind. My Mother was a Maths Teacher and she eventually would not help me when I was stuck, Then I was chastised when I would fail exams.

If you are having real problems ask the GP for some talking therapies and that may help you. Another way have words with your Course Instructor, sometimes it may be possible to have some therapy at College as many have a therapist who can help you, sometimes the College route is the best possible way forward as they can have ways to help you

With regard cutting, why do you feel that you would get relief if you do that ?? All you will do is mark your body and the scars will last generally for many years. If you feel that people are not trying to help. You can always come on here and chat with people who may be able to understand.

With me medications just made matters worse as I was unable to concentrate when taking them, I was then taking quite a few and would O/D that would just cause more problems, then make matters worse.

If you need to chat more there are many here that will help you.

Do you feel you are on the wrong course ??. Sometimes we need to think of a new way forward ??

Good Luck

BOB

[Rae98]

Thanks for the kind words and help guys. I was thinking of admitting myself into a hospital for a while as I do not feel safe. I've started hearing voices again, so that's how I know it's getting bad. I'm going to go back to the doctors.

[Wagtail]

Me too what a sad place to be in 😞