I don't know what to do.

[Rae98]

I'm so scared. Everything's bad again. I don't think my anti-depressants are working. I just feel empty. I keep waking up with scratches on me. I've been so close to self harming again. I just want to go away. I just want this to end.

[CarolineLondon]

Hi

You post this sometime ago so hopefully you feel better now or got some help or even better you are asleep!

I really think mindfulness could help. You need to slow this all down so your brain can cope. So as I mentioned in another post put your feet on the floor or against the wall, press them in, feel the floor or the wall concentrate on what tha feels like. Now listen for a noise, follow the noise in your mind concentrate on the noise for as long as you can. Believe it or not this is giving your brain as rest, slowing your heart rate and allowing you to come down from the emotional high. Do it for as long as you can.

Resolve not to think of the past or future, if they come to mind press your feet to the wall/floor slowly you will feel calmer, more in control. Get help tomorrow but for now rest as much as you can. You've beat this before you can do it again, you are a very resourceful person. A person to be recommended for their bravery in just speaking out.

XX

[Rae98 in reply to CarolineLondon]

I'm at the doctors today. I went in crying yesterday but they said I had to make an appointment. i had to sleep at my boyfriends last night because I was too scared I would do something stupid. I'm so scared. I can't do this anymore. But I'm too scared that if I talk to the doctor properly she'll want to send me away so I'm not at risk of hurting myself. I don't want to put my family through all this again.

[CarolineLondon in reply to Rae98]

WELL DONE!

Look Rae your taking charge thats the main thing

You've had enough, you are not prepared to let it get any worse, now let people help you. It's okay if you break down at the docs thats what they are there for. You don't have to be at risk of doing something stupid to get help, you need to reduce your anxiety so you can lead a good life an easier life. Take heart Rae, don't expect to much, just go in and hope for the best and know that what you do is a WONDERFUL thing.

GO RAE...Well done, it takes courage and I am proud of you!

XX

So take it slow, get there in your own time, lots of deep breaths and know this is just a few short minutes, maybe an hour out of your life.

Focus on you, no one else, you need the very best for you and only you right now.