i am focusing more on the positive things in life even tho i am still finding it awkward carrying out various tasks due to underdeveloped muscles i am starting to look for work to take my mind of things have started by leaving information in with my local special needs school. this will help me by surrounding myself with others in need of my help instead of wallowing on my own unfortunate circumstances. i have been to see the psychiatrist and have been referred to other organisations for support i am still waiting tho on a date for my rheumatologist. this is the main thing which is annoying me tho not known what type of deformity i have i am thinking about going private and paying 100 for a consultation with them.