I just want to say sorry for not writing much on the site at the moment. I feel that you all supported me and that as a result I have been able to move forward, and I know I supported some of you at the time but at the moment I read what everyone has written but just can't get into taking it in and thinking about it in order to respond much. I feel it's taking all my effort to just keep moving myself forward.
I hope you don't mind that I'm not offering much back at the moment. I am doing well really, struggling at times with finding the energy to keep from being depressed but managing it. I am now walking each weekend, one week with one group and the next with another, alternately, and it's paying off in that although I am not losing much weight I am definitely losing inches! I am delighted to find I can now fit into trousers I doubted whether would ever fit me - really great stretch chinos in bright pink and a purply pink from M & S - and I always have wanted to be back in bright trousers so it's something of a milestone for me. Got a few health problems which are being investigated - I know they COULD be serious but am holding onto the fact that probably they are not. For once I am enjoying life most of the time, the weekend Rambles keep me going through each week.
I haven't forgotten you all and just wanted you to know that, I read on the site every day and although I sometimes respond often I don't. Perhaps I am scared of going back into depression, I don't know, but whatever it is I am grateful to you all, it's great to know you are all still there and respond when I need to post.
I ALMOST miss needing to post every day and reading your responses - except I don't really want that because it is good to be feeling better for a while.
I hope you all have some periods of respite too, it's positive for me to find I CAN pull out of depression for a while and that there is some light at the end of that dark tunnel some of you will remember my being in a year or more ago. I hope you all find some light moments too.