So down Lesley x

[ava17]

Hi Lesley how are you ? My head hurts I'm fed up. How do we get out if this awful situation ... I ask you as your story is similar to mine... Ava x

[Binky1]

Oh Ava if I could only wave a magic wand for you sweetheart I would believe me .. I am so sorry that you are hurting so much it's awful for you

I am 53 now & I feel I am only just starting to come to terms with my childhood ... I have had counselling over the years & even hypnotism & regression to get to the root of my low selfesteem & self loathing .. our childhoods have messed so badly with our heads .. it has been ingrained in our very soul that we are bad .. that everything's our fault .. we are useless & have nothing to offer .. that is all so wrong & we have been programmed wrong with all this wrong information

With the help of psychotherapy you will start to unravel it all & be able to see it for what it is .. and the main thing being that it wasn't your fault .. You are a worthy person who is entitled to much peace & happiness in life just the same as anyone else

I know you are in a really bad place just now & believe me I've been there & only a matter of weeks ago I was at rock bottom & that's how I found this site, it has been an absolute lifeline for me

Please remember you are unique and special & one of these days you will realise that .. meantime just rest & recover

Sending you the biggest hugs & wishes to keep you strong .. you are strong to have come through all of this so remember that

Love Lesley xxx

[ava17 in reply to Binky1]

Yes Lesley I feel it's programmed in me Lesley. My father And men criticise me and I accept it .x

[ava17]

Lesley I've been looking all through the replays for your message. Day 3 I'm stuck in bed its a nightmare. I'm 41 so your not that much older than me. This has and is a struggle a battle with myself. My head hurts i cannot get up but was thinking about you hence I have come on here. I'm still trying to Work out the site. Anyway yes waiting for the counselling. This whole life process has messed me up, I blame my father. I crave male attention trying to please them all the time then have a fear they will dump me ..... And they do. Same pattern oh just so fed up Lesley .... Sorry for going on how are you ? So you recently confronted these gremlins am i right ?

Love Ava x