Posted other day, 64, I can’t do this anymore

[Mtndogg12]

I posted the other day, I’m 64 and trying to literally stay alive. What I didn’t mention the other day is I was healthy for all these years and about 6 months ago was diagnosed with pre cancerous cells, Hashimoto's and God knows what else I have going on, severe pelvic pain where I have to sit up trying to sleep.

I just can’t cope or do this anymore. The terrible relentless physical and emotion abuse for decades has finally caught up to me.

Dr’s have said I have to get the stress under control, how!!!!!

severe stress and low immune system.

I live with someone ( not abusive ex husband ) who drives me crazy, abusive in the way kid one minute nasty the next, I can’t live by myself, I cannot afford it. With this MDD it’s ruined my life, I can’t support myself and truly I’m sitting here in my bedroom in emotional agony.

The Dr. took a biopsy of the cancer cells and said come back in 4 months as it can progress and I’m soooo frightened. I wish I was never born, trying to be positive one minute, bawling my worst out the next, this is no life. 😢😢😢😢

I was also adopted at age 2 months and my own natural mother didn’t want to know me and stopped me from knowing my 1/2 siblings who did want to know me, had a breakdown over that years ago. Just so much pain and feeling of just a piece of trash. My ex told me I was a piece of nothing.

[Roxywizardofoz]

you have to try to get his words out of your head! It’s ptsd you’re suffering from also. Take good care of yourself. Your siblings love you!!

[Greentalon]

You have been through a lot! I don’t have helpful advice other than find safe people to talk to as verbal processing is one of the things that really helps with my physical symptoms. You are worth love and kindness and I hope you find that in your life soon.

[Arabianhorselover]

Is there a support group anywhere that you can attend?

[Light21]

you sound like you have a lot going on with your physical health and emotional health. I don’t understand why you have to wait 4 months to see if your cancer cells have progressed. I’d get a second opinion if I were you.

Are you taking any medication for anxiety/ depression? Your ex is terrible for saying you’re a piece of nothing. He must feel that way about himself to say those words to you. As the saying goes “ hurt people, hurt people.”

I wish you the best. You are enough.❤️😊