I'm not gaining any emotional victories.

[Senior4merEverything]

Fear, pain, confusion, panic!

My four constant companions. These "ride-or-die" partners have attached themselves to my life. And you know what? I've become more or less comfortable with their being around! Saad as this is, it's still the truth.

Family help? BS, on that! My family has long ago abandoned my existence to a shadowy corner that only reminds them that I'm not dead yet. I can live with this, although it doesn't make things any easier for my life, to be sure!

Yes, I know it sounds a little whiny, but the truth doesn't have to fit into the boxes we make for it to reside. Damn, but rougher emotional times have gotten in the way of my life for so long, that I don't know if a "normal" day arrived, I'd be able to survive it!

Deaths of family members. (7 this year!), have reminded me that I can be hit from sides I've never considered where I am vulnerable. But here I am, sitting in front of this device, and sharing my intimately important emotional health, with an online presence of strangers. What does this say about me? Does it say anything at all?

Am I reading a story that only exists in my head? Damn, that would be an emotionally messed up reality!

Peace, if you can find it, my friends. And, I hope you can.

[Midori]

I'm not sure if I can help with your travel buddies, but there are some things I am familiar with.

Families are a pain. My son and I have moved as far from my daughter and her family as it is possible to get without encountering the Codfish Prairie! She occasionally nags my son online, as she wants to get herself a passport, but I don't have all the info she requires. She has announced that she wants to move abroad, but not where. I just hope she is catering to my grandson's needs properly. He's still a teen, and it may be disrupting him (not that she cares!). She doesn't drive, so It might be hard for her.

When you get to a certain age, Family and friends deaths are inescapable, I'm afraid, and you have have had more than most in one year. I am sorry for your losses.

You being here, unburdening yourself is a good thing, and we anonymous folk at the other end have no axe to grind in chatting with you. We may be able to help. What it says about you is that you are a person who need companions to chat with, so go for it!

Cheers, Midori

[Crumblekins]

I really relate to this, I don't have anyone close to talk about my mental health, I had multiple negative experiences with talking to different close people about it. I think that just living in itself is a victory, even small things like getting out of bed, doing things you might not wanna do. Even if its small, its okay, some days just feel worse than others. I hope you do find someone you can talk to about these things and is supportive. I also hope that things get better for you, even if its slowly.

[Lucci8]

I appreciate your message and wish you the best in finding someone to talk to. Reading the posts helps me and I hope my reply helps you. We’re all here for each other.

❤️