diazepam

[basten]

too late doctor apologising now. took innocently as prescribed for sleep 6 years . now sleep varies 4 hrs . depends what i eat too .depression its caused worst ever known. no hygeine , no chores, stay in bed till late, or pjs, living on crap ready meals . then recently eating too much sweet stuff biscuits etc. saw psych. 2 grown caring kids live elsewhere .all tell go out do things join a u3a (im uk) why dont they understand its like a mental block , i just dont want to. my hair needs washing , bed changing so what. im crying or just numb feet nothing. yes ive posted joined fb groups , some say what other things i have is benzo belly a few have said g.i issues very common. my ears hiss ]and days they don't . just lost interest in everything even tv. if shops put same clothes on over night wear plus jacket cos no car. other physical issues too. was on an antidepressant made no difference .cos been on soo many in 30 years psych said will not give me anything else. all antipressants put weight on me. I tried slow taper before and for anyone who may know its hell thr lower i got. my worst symptom is burning in my back by pm eating undescribable .couldn't cope had to increase , gp said reduce 1mg every 3 weeks and ive reduced 1mg see him today. i still depressed . bowels are a mess often snappy if see son or verbal. i text him sent stuff re benzoes says he's read but dont believe he has. daughter i couldnt wish for a better one but on verge of breakdown herself over things anf cut off for own sanity and doesn't want to hear it. son neither . me going on about my illnesses , my issues, say its always about you. son tries to makr me laugh, calls less frequent . he used to stay a weekend , but if i mentioned it , mum im busy seeing friends or trying to find new job dont forget being made redundant .you been likr it years slways moaning . . he's even took me on hols last year and i was ok.Now im not.. i have no friends . one lady used to takr me to coffee morning, who isn't well herself much younger than me and used to ssy let me know if anywhere you wanna go and ill pick you uo if im ok. she knows what i take , im started saying no thanks not too good today .ok let me know when want too. of course she doesn't ask any more . i may chat to her or ladies ask how their kids are compliment them, but they never ask me anything .i was talking to a psychotherapist nice lady, she encouraged me etc but i stopped that as cant help with bowels anf other annoying symptoms ans gastro said he won't give up on me , ive bombarded him with emails poo pics, he did one test, all normal , but wrote i could try something ,may help but can cause constipation . i already he knows take laxatives for slow bowel transit . i dont understand ,phonef his secretary 3 times please i just would like to discuss bowel issues etc. yes he reads your mails and he hasn't given up on you and yes I'll mail him. never heard a thing .next appointment feb 2025 .oh good said gp not long as many are waiting even a year . i know that psych discharged me