I’m falling

[Ineedelp123]

im slipping back in to the darknesses and I don’t n in ow if I can fight my way out I don’t know if I can find my way out again. I feel so alone loss like I have no friends. I have nowhere to go to emptiness that I can’t feel it’s just horrible and I pray and I pray, but it’s like God didn’t hear my prayer. What’s wrong with me? Why do I feel so sad all the time, why do I always wanna cry anybody spend time with me? Why can I be happy I need help and I don’t know where to go and where to

[I_LOVE_TACOS]

Please find comfort in knowing you are not alone. Depression is a vile monster that you have to fight. Praying helps. I think God leads me to changes in medication and helps me seek out new treatment. If you don’t mind me asking- are you on medications and/or talking with a therapist?

[Ineedelp123 in reply to I_LOVE_TACOS]

thank you for your reply. I’m not on any meds right now but I’m talking to therapist. If I can get pass the heaviness on my chest I think I could push through. How do I keep fighting

[I_LOVE_TACOS in reply to Ineedelp123]

Sweetie, you have emptiness, loneliness and hopelessness. They are all red flags of depression. Continue to see your therapist so you can have someone to talk to without fear of judgement. But when it really comes down to it, my opinion is you really need to be on some medication to help you feel like you can conquer this beast. I’ve been there, done that, and have the hospital wristband to prove it. Don’t worry about the stigma. Nobody has to know if you are on antidepressants or that you even have depression. Hopefully, with some medication, you will be able to have a normal life. I feel like when you see the psychiatrist, he will suggest meds. Don’t turn him down.

[Ineedelp123 in reply to I_LOVE_TACOS]

I tried the meds before they made me feel like zombie I couldn’t function. I hate the way I feel it is making me miserable

[I_LOVE_TACOS in reply to Ineedelp123]

Good news is there is a buttload of medications for your conditions! Sometimes, it takes trial and error to find the right one for you. I’ve been on meds that make me feel like a zombie, too. I just tell my practitioner “This ain’t working for me. We need to try something else.” I have been on so many meds in my lifetime. I have to take a combination of meds. One to hit on every receptor in the brain and I can finally feel a little normalcy.

if you are totally against meds, I understand and respect your decision. Just know you have many options. There are noninvasive treatments you can do. A lot of people respond well to them or some of them get enough relief they can function again and deal with the depression. I said a prayer for you and hope you find your inner peaceful soul.

You got this!

[Browny71]

I love tacos is right. You need the right meds. Not all meds make you feel like a zombie. I have been where you are where you feel like crying all the time. It will pass but you don’t have to endure this on just therapy alone. Hope you find the answer