Pharmacophobia and severe depression and anxiety

[Amen9771]

I have been suffering with pharmocophobia ( the fear of taking medicine) for 10 years , I'm going through the change of life so my hormones are off making my depression and anxiety even worse. I'm falling apart daily and can't do anything since I'm given medication and hrt but can't take it regularly like a normal person. I have lost my career, my support system which only consists of my husband and son since I have no family or friends. I can't get enough energy to do anything I used to do and I have suicidal ideation everyday. If I call 988 all they have to say is I understand it must be hard but it'll be okay but NO one has any idea how hard it is to live with severe depression and anxiety and be UNABLE to take any kind of medicine to get any relief due to fear and phobia of it. I am trapped and things are not getting better, so no it's not going to be okay. Is there anyone out there that has dealt with this problem, is there a glimmer of hope and light available for someone like me?

[Cjhays]

I am sorry . Yes I understand your frustration and suffering. I truly don’t have any answers though. Just know you are not alone! Maybe try the med , what is it? Your friend here ….