Hospital trip

[Cookie2217]

Hi. I just got back home from the hospital this evening. It was unrelated to my depression thank goodness, but I did find out I had a nodule which is 9.1 mm on my lung that they found in a cat scan test. The hospital doctors thought I also had a blood clot in my lung but it turned out that I didn't which is wonderful news. I have to say though that the 9.1 mm nodule is giving me a quite a bit of anxiety and worry though because I don't know what it is, how long it's been there and there's a lot of unknowns ya know what I mean. My husband went home and researched a lot and he found a video done by a physician that said that there's a lot of unnecessary surgeries like bronchioscopies because 99.5% of nodules are nothing and they're benign and not cancerous so that made me feel a bit better but I still am uneasy about it. The video also said that the shape of the nodule matters too and if it's a circular fatty mess then it's usually benign almost 100% of the time, but if it's spiky in shape then it's most likely cancer. If it turns out to be the worse possible senerio and if it is a fact cancer they did catch it early so that's a good thing. I do have to follow up with a pulmonologist, a cardiologist as well because of the episodes I was having and my primary care physician too. So I do have some doctor's appointments coming up where all probably get to learn more about that nodule and what my next steps are going to be. I was taken out of work by an ambulance on Wednesday and called my boss tonight and told her but I'd be back to work on Monday and she said sounds good so keeping myself busy will be a welcomed distraction I'm guessing......

[Sunsetlover19]

Hi Cookie,

I hope the nodule is benign. I certainly understand the anxiety you feel. I think it’s a wise plan keeping busy until you know more facts about the prognosis. Worrying takes up too much energy and isn’t good for our mental well-being. Stay strong and please keep us posted.

🙏🏻❤️‍🩹🙏🏻

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[Cookie2217 in reply to Sunsetlover19]

Thank you Sunsetlover. Yes, nothing much I can do about it right now since it's already there and definitely hoping it's benign as well. Thank you for you positive post to me and for your prayers too. I so appreciate it! I will definitely keep you posted. 🖤🖤

[blackcat64013]

Hi Cookie,Thank you for your post.

I am sure you are in good hands with your physical health needs.

Looking after your mental health is important too.

You can't have one without the other.

Praying for you

🙏 ❤ 🐈‍⬛

[Cookie2217 in reply to blackcat64013]

Thank you so very much! My medication change from Pristiq 100 mg. with Abilify 10 mg. to Prozac 20 mg. with Abilify 10 mg. has been a game changer for me! I've been on Prozac for a month now without having any side effects whatsoever. So far, so good. I need to keep doing my journaling too as I've gotten away from doing it a bit recently but I have to be diligent in continuing to do so you know what I mean. I also did psychotherapy in 2023 and it was very helpful. I was verbally, emotionally and psychologically abused by my mother when I was a teenager as I was her target. I was also physically abused by my father when I was younger than that and he also didn't protect me from my mother's wrath towards me nightly and instead went to bed instead and left me to deal with it all by myself. I wound up writing my parents a letter each telling them what they did to me, how it made me feel and at the end of the letters I forgave each of them not for them but for me and my own healing.

[Hidden]

You're in good hands... and will not succumb to defeat. No sickness can harm your body ever again! I believe that I can! Get healed, or be a good believer that I can! I believe that power in me can overtake this cancer, until I am healthy. No losers in this row!

[Cookie2217]

Thank you for you reply to me Jizzel! What you said is exactly 100% correct. I will not succumb to defeat ever. I believe that a power greater than myself in my case God can overtake this cancer and I will pray if that's what it turns out to be. I was told today that a nodule could be absolutely nothing as well too so I'm just going to try to be calm, cool and collected and follow up with my pulmonologist and cardiologist and primary care physician and go from there. You know what I mean.