MDD Support

[Smooth_Jazz_Lvr]

Hi Im new to this forum. I have challenges with Major Depression with Psychosis for over 10 years. It has affected my relationships, and several jobs. I feel lost and lonely. I’m seeking friends that can relate and understand.

[Pixiegreen69]

I totally relate to you! I have PTSD, anxiety, depression, schizoaffective disorder with psychosis, and bipolar one. I just finished a bout with psychosis. It was terrifying. The voice is never say anything good at all they’re frightening! I also feel things when I’m in psychosis. I’ve had rats crawling all over me, mice, crawling all over me, somebody grabbing me on the ankle, really hard and holding it… I don’t know when you’re online so I don’t know when we can talk. I don’t think we can talk live on here. I am new as well and just happened to see your post and was totally relatable. I am on disability, but I work very part-time. I can’t work anymore than about eight hours a week or 12 at max. Any stress will trigger my psychosis. In a manic episode, as part of my bipolar, I racked up $18,000 in credit card debt! I’m also in a support group for shopping addiction. I don’t think I’m really addicted but it’s my go to when I’m manic. The recovery program really helps me with coping mechanisms, and listening to other people with addictions. It’s very, much on point with what I need to hear in order to keep myself from shopping when I am manic. My illness has affected relationships as well. It’s just too much stress for anyone to handle. I feel like a burden a lot of the time. My kids live with me now. They are adults. But they are moving out probably in the summer, and I am really scared to be alone at home and psychotic. I think I’m going to grow old alone and crazy and broke. My finance situation is giving me a lot of stress, which I think is triggering a lot of the depression and psychosis currently. I get a shot every month that works for about three weeks but then the last week of the month I have to take risperidone to bridge the gap before my next shot is due. I hate that last week of the month psychosis is miserable and I’m sorry you go through it. I wouldn’t wish it on anybody. Feel free to talk to me if you want. I’m here.