terrible day.

[Spiritanimal]

I am not ok today. Was thinking of taking a bottle of blood pressure pills just to end it. I’ve been in this place many times. I’m beyond sick of this invisible disease. But I have a 17 year old daughter who depends on me, and I can’t check out, at least for her sake.

[gajh]

I am sorry that you are suffering. I am glad that you will stick around for your daughter. Are you doing anything to get help? Meds or therapy? I am glad you are here posting. Do you have anyone you can talk to?

[Spiritanimal in reply to gajh]

Thank you and thanks for your reply. Yes, I am on medication and I also have a therapist. I can talk to my husband and he is a big support to me. but I’ve had trouble connecting with others for the past couple of years and become pretty isolated. I’ve been struggling w professional burnout too which really exacerbates things.

[Danigirl66]

Prayers for you that this feeling will pass asap 🙏 I understand the struggle. I have to take it one day at a time.

[Spiritanimal in reply to Danigirl66]

Thank you for your prayers, Danigirl. I appreciate those who understand. It scares me when I feel that way. I’ve always had fear that I won’t make it far into my daughter’s adulthood because my depression can have such a powerful voice and distorts my thinking. I’m feeling somewhat better today.

[Marysblue in reply to Spiritanimal]

I was just going to ask you if you felt better today,so glad you do.