Drowning in depression tonight

[Raggedy-Ann]

The season is changing and I felt relieved as I am sick of bugs. I am sick of the heat too. I was looking at amazon bedding and Christmas things appeared. I am out of the heat and into the holidays alone again. I don't have the strength. The thought makes me want to cry and sleep through it all. I think about other people having fun, people I know enjoying........... The silence hurts my soul. I am in the one moment at a time mode. I wish I could vomit out all of this darkness.

[downinthecrud]

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. I, too, share your circumstances. We are not alone

[gillyflowerz]

I agree, it’s horrid to have Christmas celebrations pushed in front of us who don’t feel like celebrating. Glad you felt relieved that the heat is gone, so am I. I will put that on my gratitude list.

[NonpartisanHarmony]

I find holidays rather upsetting. Christmas because it's so overblown and consumerist. And birthdays and others holidays are usually hard and lonely. But there are many who share this, with you in spirit

[Raggedy-Ann]

One year for Christmas I got a divorce, 12 days before Christmas. I've feel like the holiday music mocks me.