I have not been diagnosed with MDD, but I'm been taking several medications for depression and anxiety for years.

[MyCasita]

This year has been different. In April, I lost it...I was under so much stress at work that I was breaking down and crying. I couldn't do my job. Others did see my distress and helped with some of my tasks. At lunch that very day, I went to my car and saw my dog's lease. I imagined putting it around my neck. (But I would never do that because of my kids). I knew that I needed a break.

[EnergeticTortoise]

MyCasita, thank you for your honesty. Are you seeing a general or family doctor for your medications? If you can see a psychiatrist, or psychologist they may be able to help with an official diagnosis, and to go over the current meds your on, and how they may be working for you. Your current doctor can give you a referral to a mental health professional.

I'm sorry that you have gone through this, I hope bright love for your future, I want the dog leash to remind you of your happy puppy companion, and I hope much has already changed for you.

[Rikachan]

I am so sorry to hear that. Do you have any relatives that can Help you with Kids ?