MDD and Bipolar

[Flipmode76]

It’s like I’m a sunny beautiful day while at the same time I’m a fucking atomic bomb about burst out of my body and say fuck every thing and everybody. I’m an outgoing and funny person. I’m caring helpful thoughtful willing to self sacrifice to help the better good of whatever situation. However, I constantly feel worthless like there’s no meaning to anything constantly failing constantly starting over. Losing friends and family daily. I’m becoming a hermit crab. I don’t sleep and I forget to eat. Sleeping is for the dead with these damn thoughts always going. I can’t sleep I fucking have night terrors which came from a triggered episode to where I’m yelling in my sleep every night. I’m so done feeling like this. I wish there was a cure and treatment that was in depth taylored to each individuals simptoms. Is there anything out there pls help… so I can help some else too

[PeaceNeed]

I dont have any advice. Ive just been toold by others not to be angry it pushes peoople away. Ive lost friends and family. Now alone and old.