Hello! I have been on HealthUnlocked for just over a year, but this is my first post in the MDD community. I figured I would share this one here. Have patience as I am going to give some back story first! And I tend to get a bit long-winded in my posts, LOL.
Music has always been important to me. I even played piano from about 4th grade through high school. I listen to a variety of genres and many times chose music based on my mood or to help relax and sleep or pep me up.
This last year has really been difficult. I finally hit my wall in 2021. Well, more like I kept walking into it until I finally realized I couldn't go through it and collapsed. I then ended going through an IOP February/March of 2022. Between the program and starting on mood stabilizers, I felt for the first time like looking to my future. And I was feeling positive! Then, our adorable golden doodle puppy peed in the hallway. I didn't see it and fell; slammed my head into a door frame and started the nearly 9 month journey of recovery. With not working many days/weeks off and on, I thought it was a good idea to start a business and made several purchases through Affirm and took on a few personal loans. My brain was definitely not functioning properly! By October, I finally had to decide to quit work after missing many weeks off and on, working a reduced schedule and multiple doctor visits. Then there was having to put down our two senior dogs, Nala in December and Simba a few weeks ago. Then the week after putting Simba down, I was in a car accident that triggered concussion like symptoms and prevented me from working. I was dashing and doing 3rd party catering deliveries. Through the concussion ordeal last year, I also had to deal with my husband being annoyed it was taking me so long to heal and accusing me of "taking advantage" and even "faking it". Yeah, real supportive.
Anyway, there was one song that seemed to resonate with me through all of this. It is a song Cher sings in the movie Burlesque, called You Haven't Seen the Last of Me. Yes, it may seem odd to pick a song from that movie, but I really connected with it. I enjoy the whole soundtrack actually, but this song really hit home. Of course, its CHER, so her voice alone can evoke emotions. In the song she about being brought to her knees and "pushed past the point of breaking" but staying strong and being "built tough". How she's not going anywhere and as the title states, "You haven't seen the last of me". I have sung along quietly in the shower, loudly in my car, shed tears, clinched my fist in the air, shook my head and overall allowed myself to get lost in the song. Sometimes I will listen multiple times a day, other times, maybe once a week or less. But every time, I feel a little stronger, a little braver, a little tougher. I've never really considered myself to be tough but, considering the shit I have delt with in my life, this song got me thinking that maybe I am just a little bit tough and can face anything head on.
I would like to know what songs have resonated with you. What songs help you get through tough times?
Here is a YouTube link to the video if you want to have a listen.
Thanks for reading!
