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[Sadbutfunny]

Hi! I’ve been living with MDD and anxiety for as long as I can remember. I recently had a huge setback about 6 months ago. I see a therapist, I’m on medication and have gone through two rounds on intensive outpatient programs. I am now not able to work because of my depression and anxiety. Now I’m left with a lot of time spent alone. I do volunteer a couple of times a week, which is good, but that’s all I can handle for right now. I feel like a failure for not being able to work a full time job. I didn’t realize how much working defined me until I didn’t have a job anymore. I’m trying to get into a routine but it’s hard. I try to motivate myself to do activities but I just don’t find joy in anything anymore. I’m just trying to take it one day at a time. I guess that’s all I can do. Thank you for listening to me vent.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Welcome to this forum. It’s a good place to be. We all can identify with you. My self worth also takes a hit periodically because I can’t do the things I once got pleasure in doing. I used to do watercolor painting. But since my breakdown I can’t get motivated. Personal hygiene is an issue too. Why does taking a shower feel like I’m climbing Mt Everest?

I see a therapist and psychiatrist. Am on meds. And have a fabulous support system. All of which give me an even playing field. Good for you doing volunteer work. Keep it up.

I also went through TMS treatment over two years ago. And that helped.

Keep posting. And PM me if you need to.