Feel guilty allover again

[Pippa49]

They said that I didn't need to return it but someone on here personally said that they could not take. I didn't want to put it on but a volunteer put it around my neck. I am not even telling people I finished as they are assuming I did because of the bag you are given when picking up your number. I have been quick to point out that I did not finish the marathon in full and crossed the line to get to the baggage area as told by the marshals. I could have been really dishonest and accepted the congratulations and not offered to send the medal back. Yes I should not have taken it but I was in bits about not finishing the full distance and not thinking straight and they assumed I had finished. They have said keep it as a memento. They

[Oldfloss Administrator]

Pippa... please, time to stop tormenting yourself now.

Everyone on the forum has the facts and folk have been supportive and honest ...but, i think you are letting this really worry you.

That medal is worrying you, I feel, every single time to you look at it... so...maybe...time to either send it back to the organisers anyway... donate it to a charity shop...give it to a local school in Brighton as a Sports Day fun Trophy...Just let it go.

You, and we, know how hard you worked for this, but again, and I stress this is only my thoughts... maybe, think about still aiming high, but be kinder to yourself... shorter race distances.. for charities and for yourself?

I can't bear to think of you upsetting yourself with this any longer..

As Madge50 says... onward and upward..but just maybe, in a gentler way..

[Pippa49 Half Marathon in reply to Oldfloss]

You are right. I won't mention it again as I am obviously boring people. I am grateful for the support and encouragement and the honesty and that is the last you will hear on the subject.

[Oldfloss Administrator in reply to Pippa49]

That was not the intention of my message... I posted my reply as a fellow runner...You are not boring anyone... at all... we are all here for each other.

My reply to you, was out of a real concern... you have done amazingly , truly... I just worry a lot about folk on the forums...it's what I do xx

[Pippa49 Half Marathon in reply to Oldfloss]

I know just a bit sensitive about the situation still.

[Oldfloss Administrator in reply to Pippa49]

I can feel that and that's I why really hoped to make you feel a bit better.. x

We are all here for you... it is the friendships on here that have got me, and many of us through very hard times. x

[Pippa49 Half Marathon in reply to Oldfloss]

Thank you for your concern. On a different note I am going back to work and I am little sore sitting down which as I am an audio typist is going to be interesting lol. Been walking around like a decrepit zombie since I got home. Was OK yesterday. Think it's caught up with me.

[Oldfloss Administrator in reply to Pippa49]

You just take care of you.. and you keep posting what you are doing please... rest when you can x

[Sandraj39 Half Marathon]

Oldfloss has said it all Pippa and I think has made some good suggestions about the medal which might help you move on from this? Maybe then you can feel proud of getting as far as you did - no shame in that at all!! A full marathon can always remain a goal for the future, if that is what you decide you still want. You have obviously done incredibly well with your running this year, with two hms 👍😀 - I would be chuffed with just one(!), having had to postpone plans for my second, last month. This is the journey that running takes us on, and it is never an easy road!

Take care and please be kind to yourself.🙂

[Decker Ultramarathon]

I know it stresses you, but you still put a huge effort into your own race regardless of completion. If it bothers you that much, maybe you put the medal in a box and then train on your own to do the full distance before taking it out again. Use it as motivation. You don’t need to tell anyone, just do it on your own for your own peace of mind. And when you do it, you can take that medal back out of the box and hang it up. Just a suggestion. But seriously, you did earn that thing and it should not rob you of any more joy. I’ll shutup now 😊

[linda9389 Administrator Marathon in reply to Decker]

What a fantastic idea!

[Hillrunner2201 Marathon]

I think it was a lovely gesture of the marshal to give you the medal and I would keep it for that reason; and as decker said use it as motivation to complete the full distance another time 👍

[Pippa49 Half Marathon in reply to Hillrunner2201]

Thank you for your reply. It makes me feel better about it.