I'm a carer to a disabled mentally ill woman, i have been bed bound for five years. I'm very scared and i'm crying all the time, i see no one but a stretcher for appointments via ambulance.I cant get a bath as i have no disabled facilities, i can manage 7 steps and i eat by sitting on a pillow on my toilet seat as i don't have a proper seat or room, i have a tiny table in the bath beside the toilet to eat off. Thing is i have had an esa50 form for the disabled lady but the fill in doctor has written an awful letter to back her up, in it the doc said i was a friend? I have been her legal carer since 2001, she also said she could not work currently, my disabled lady cant walk more than 12ft. We are both going to end up homeless, what do i do, i'm bedbound but still got my brain and hands and phone for my internet. I wish i was dead and my disabled lady szys she will commit suicide, i said we will do it together, i can't fight all this with the dwp. The tories will have blood on their hands as i cant cope. I'm 48 and 43 when i became bedbound. Life is awful, all friends left when i became bedbound, none of us have family. Any advice would be welcome before we both end up dead. Many thanks for a reply.