I feel so guilty that my flare of 2 years (& it HAS been a particularly savage 1) seems 2 b on it's way out & that while I'm feeling more positive & optimistic about the coming new year, so many of u r having such a s***** time. There r a few of u on here that I have spoken 2 (well, TYPED 2) in the last few weeks that I feel I have a common bond with (obviously cos of the lupus etc & all the things we go through, plus the fact that I recognise the stages that some of u r at, emotionally & physically & I can relate 2 them) & it makes me so sad 2 hear how low some of u r feeling & how much pain u're in.
Lupus makes me SO bloody angry at how it affects us all, not just physically, but emotionally & mentally as well, it's such n evil disease that I wouldn't wish on ANY1, not even my worst enemy (don't get me wrong, I aint a saint & certainly wouldn't wish them well either).
I sincerely wish that there was something I could say or do just 2 bring a smile 2 u're faces, 2 make u forget about lupus 4 just 1 minute or make things better 4 u all but sadly I can't. I don't have any funny anecdotes 2 share & I'm s**** at telling jokes so all I can do is send out the biggest possible virtual hug I can, that's warm & soft & comforting 2 u all. I am not a religious person but I will say a prayer 4 each of u 2nite as whatever we've all done in our lives, none of us deserve this crap. U r ALL in my thoughts x