Even though the last few months my lupus is asleep I feel nervous and scared.
My last appointment with my doctor was great, all my blood tests were great, the ultrasounds good and my health in general very good. I am reducing prednisolone as well and I am feeling happy because I will finally see results on my weight loss.
Since I was diagnosed 16 years ago I never felt bad about what is happening to me, or disappointed, or bad in general. I was always positive and patient and not afraid of anything.
But the last few weeks I have this constant feeling that something bad will happen to me. Every time I feel the slightest pain my brain starts the scenarios of having a very bad flare or even worse dying unexpectedly in my sleep. I am trying to stop it but I don't seem to do much... I am struggling... What's wrong with me!!?