Hi, I’m on steroids 20 mg and I’m sure I’m developing an eating disorder, I binge on bad food all day long I can’t help myself, sweets stuff, crisps , bread, candy I can’t stop. I never turn the lights on , once the day light is gone that’s it I’m in the dark just the tv on and eat lots of rubbish. I’m thinking to take laxatives bc I feel so bloated and I putted on 5 kg already and after all this the steroids aren’t making any different, I feel weaker than ever , no pain numbness, weakness feeling like I’m drunk really unsteady on my feet, really scary , I feel I’m not in control , terrified I’ll end up on a wheelchair, completely alone , with some career who come to see me just bc they get payed to , with all the NHS cuts probably I’ll be die alone and they’ll find me bc the neighbors complains out the smell.
Sorry for been such a drip , I’m so tired of just existing, I forgot when was last time I had a good laugh or I was genuinely happy .
Thank you x