So I go from an upbeat person, who laughs and smiles and faces the day ahead, to a person that does not reflect the real me.
I sleep, and when I’m awake I just feel like I can’t cope, I feel like I don’t want to live my life like this. I am extremely fatigued at this time of writing, and trying to stay strong by remembering my good healthy self.
Is this illness causing a stage of depression, or does it change the balance in the brain? My own self confuses me and more worryingly I know I will be ok again in a couple of days, until the next time. I can no longer talk to family or friends, they all say the same thing “your be alright in a few days” to a degree this is correct, but when I’m feeling this way them words are no good.
I thought I’d grown up the past few years, but reality is, I haven’t! I can no longer engage in late nights out, having a drink and just being fun, I envy most people around me. And on top of this I’m a single mum to 3 children , who I struggle to give a normal life to. I need to better manage these periods of feeling totally down , but anti depressants don’t work 😔