Lots of helpful replies on pushing through. Thank you. I don't have a diagnosis yet, but Lupus looks like a contender. This time last year I was working very full time. For example, last March I spent 10 days working in the Middle East and Malaysia, flew home, went off to a training camp for three days with my pony, back to work then flew out to Egypt to work . I finished working like this in September at 55 in order to enjoy more time with my husband, children, grandchildren and pony. I bought myself a new puppy too. The weird pains started in November. I had to give up weight training as I thought that was the cause.
Since January I've been almost permanently ill with overreactions to infections, intermittent temperatures, agonising pains in hands and arms for 24 hours, now just dull aches plus another cough and loss of voice ( so I can't whinge out loud).
I look after my two grandchildren aged 1 and 3 one day a week. I drive 125 miles, collect them from nursery, start bed time then Mummy and Daddy come home. The next day it is just me and them. On the last day I felt well with them, we did so much together - toddler group, playing with the puppy in the park, silly games at home plus I sorted laundry, had the house all tidy and supper ready for Mummy and Daddy.
Now I manage to get to toddler group then I lie on the sofa whilst they play around me for the rest of the day and pray that I can drive home ok once my daughter gets home. How on earth do Mum's manage when they feel like this? I'm flat out so far today with hip pain, wrist pain and shoulder pain.
I know my blood tests are showing issues, but I'm not able to see my GP girl another couple of weeks.
Thank you for allowing me to moan. I really don't need any responses. I'm in a much better state than so many other people. I'm just mourning the loss of my energy and physical abilities and hoping they will come back again.
Now, do I actually post this after all the whinging I've done?