**Why am I so tired? Why am I so tired ALL THE TIME?
You know why you're so tired. It's called lupus and you've been bitching about it for months. So don't act like you're all surprised and ****.
**I really want to take a nap. I can barely keep my eyes open.
Don't take a nap. That's being weak. You're stronger than this.
**It's not about being strong or weak. It's about listening to and respecting what your body is telling you.
But my body is all wrong, so isn't what it's telling me wrong, too?
**I don't know. I wish I could tell you, but I don't know.
You're never going to be the person you were.
**No one ever stays "the person they were". It's called change and everybody goes through it. So stop bitching about it like you're some special snowflake.
Am I worth all the misery?
**Yes, you are. Or conversely, you're not. Either way, you're still you. So get on with it.
God, I just really, really want to lay down.
**So go lay down. Just go lay down. You picked up the house, you took out trash, you scooped out litterboxes and even managed an excursion out for groceries and coffee. You've done good today. You deserve to lay down.
Okay. Okay, I'll go lay down. Thank you for saying I deserve to rest. Sometimes I forget that.
**I know. That's why I'm here, to tell you that you that it's okay to rest.