I have my rheumy review tomorrow. I last saw him 4 months ago. Last night I had a sudden panic as I realised how much is at stake on a good outcome - and how little confidence I have in this happening.
I raised my especially problematic symptoms at the last appointment (extreme fatigue, tachycardia, heart pain, flushes and shaking) and to my amazement, he said they didn't sound like they were related to the immune disorder, or to my meds. He advised me to attend A&E if the chest pain persisted. Otherwise, I should simply continue on my current meds, tapering the steroid dose.
In the 4 months since, I have been blue lighted into A&E when my chest pain grew particularly bad. No evidence of an MI was found, but I was started on B blockers. The other symptoms I complained of have worsened and my GP has arranged a neurology referral and test for POTS. He also requested an expedited rheumatology appointment (to no effect)
Meanwhile, my Occupational Health Doctor has seen me and recommended I take ill health retirement. He's written to request a letter from my rheumy to back this up, but my rheumy has not yet responded. I go on to zero pay in 3 weeks' time.
My big fear for tomorrow is that 1. my rheumy will do the same as last time and offer no advice other than "carry on carrying on" and 2. I will respond by becoming hysterical, thus reinforcing the idea that this is all an exaggerated anxiety reaction.
I'm rambling. I have no question to ask. I will post again after the review. Hopefully without the hysteria. Mx