I dont even know where to begin trying to explain this......
I work full time which is at times a massive struggle, I've been open and honest with my managers and colleagues about my illnesses. I've had a shocking year health wise, I've dislocated my hip and shoulder, had a minor stroke and a blood clot, had my 8th miscarriage and been told I can't have children and to top it off had a massive flare which lasted for months, at one point my family were asked to make an end of life plan as I wasnt expected to live.
All pretty serious stuff. Work have been so unsupportive its unbelievable, over 5 months I had 2 phone calls from them, one asking when I was expecting to return and one asking which company we use to fix the dishwasher!!
I've returned to work now, I still have an awful lot of pain and fatigue but I'm getting on with it. Not once have my managers asked how I am doinig.
Another girl in work had had a cyst removed from her ovary this week, theyve phoned her every day to see how she is, they visited her in hospital, theyve sent a card and flowers and all they can talk about is how awful it must be for her.
I know that it isnt a pleasant operation and I do feel sorry for her and I do hope she is ok but I just feel so bloody angry that she is getting so well supported when I have had absolutely nothing. I nearly died and had such a hard time but they just dont seem to care.
What I'm most angry about though is that I had such a great relationship with my management, we were such a good team and through all of the bad times and struggles I've stood by my managers side, i've defended her, believed in her and fought her corner. I feel so used and angry.