depression in a rush

[coetzeegisela]

Always too anxious to get anything done, need to stop. How? But one does so very much every moment. Cannot keep up with selves!. These things detract so much from one's life/living. Any similar? Best, G COETZEE

[SarahHeney]

I think it might be a good idea to talk to your GP and explain how you are feeling. Maybe write this down and take it with you to show the doc.xx

[cass1984]

I am feeling exactly the same. Sometimes I feel like I have had a complete personality change! I am happy one minute but as soon as I get stressed I am slap bang into the worst depression ever! Your not alone xx

[morlobach]

it are the typical symptoms of failure anxiety and peer pressure for someone who does things with the weight of an auto immune condition on their shoulders. Everything demands more energy, is more tiring and causes more pain disregards how brave one is. One day you find some spare energy to hide your discomfort from the people around you the next day you simply don't and feel like throwing in the towel for good, but it does not have to be that way… The trick to get through the bad days( and nights) is to pace yourself and do throw the towel in occasionally for a day in bed to recharge your batteries. Days and nights don't have to be set out for you like for everyone else, one can divide them in chunks. Find for yourself a new structure of time partitions in which you have regular rests to recharge your energy levels. This prevents you from running empty and provoking a feeling of complete despair. Sleepless nights,caused by pain, distress or simple not been able to catch sleep can be managed in the same way. Why try to fight with it, get up for an hour or two, do something you would have done during the day and as soon you feel tired , return and start the next time partition of sleep. It's a game of time management and with it truly life management. You don't have to keep on fighting, no one can, that is what causes the depression type feeling, you need to live with it and give it a place in your structure. Lupus is not your enemy, you have to learn to embrace it for Lupus makes you a persons with more courage, more drive and more motivation than anyone else. Stop proving yourself you can do everything the same way as others, start proving you are a great manager and give it a space in your heart. The moment you stop fighting it, you have that energy to nurture yourself in the moments pain and frustration get you. Have a cup of hot cocoa of tea, go to bed and comfort yourself till your body and energy is manageable again. This is how we do it my dear… One more thing, every one feels frustrated at some point, even people without Lupus and there are a heck of a lot of people in the world with some kind of discomfort be it physical or mental, you are not alone. It's not BAD to have a day off or feel a little drained, just have a break and say… tomorrow will be another day, good night. HUGS xxx

[lizzidrippin]

I totally agree with everyone...

Loss of work, reliance on others, depression,pain, restricted mobility and feeling absolutely useless...It's not easy to acknowledge that you can't do things like you used to, especially if you're in the younger age group...not being ageist, but some things do slow us down naturally as we get older.

It's taken me quite a while to acknowledge these changes, but once you do, I've found they've played a major part in 'pain management'. ... I guess it's whole life management!

What I do need to say is that it doesn't mean you are giving in, it's just a different approach...Mentally , I feel stronger than I have done in the past few years. I'm even coping with losing my eyesight better.... and again, it doesn't mean that I don't have bad days....but as the song says....Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all over again.....

Hope things get better for you XXX

[Carolha]

I totally understand what you mean Lizzydripping but where do you start. I'm still under the hospital being diagnosed for fibromyalgia or lupus or both for the last year. It's been delayed as I nearly died this summer due to my gallbladder removal op going wrong and still dealing with the repercussions of that. On top of it all I now have to see my lady GP on Tuesday as they think I may have a prolapse (probably caused through constipation due to gallbladder removal causing me to stain) sorry about being so graphic.

I've sobbed this week, I have just wanted to end, one wrong word from my husband and I've felt like taking all the painkillers walking down the lane and falling into a ditch! I'm on antidepressants but they don't make to problem go away and I just yearn for my old life back, life's a bitch.

[coetzeegisela]

Life makes living so hard that life is exhausting; when we sleep there is the invigoration of all things of being; when we die we stop. Rather continue fighting.

coetzeegisela

[Carolha in reply to coetzeegisela]

That's why I'm still here, even though I've sobbed so much this week. Hopefully I will be going upwards soon as we all do. Life has its ups and downs but I think our downs are probably in a mine rather than a well. We need someone with a longer ladder to help us climb back up. That's why there are people like you, as are well all on here, so when we are on our ups we can help the others when they are down. Thank you xx