Im stuck in a place where depression is taking over and no one is doing anything to help me (i.e. doctor or rheumy) Day in day out I do nothing because im so done I don't go out I went out of my house 3 weeks ago I haven't set foot out the house since, I always close my bedroom curtains and never let any light in I just switch of from outside. I feel like I don't want to go out anymore Im sick of everything I haven't eaten a proper dinner for a long time just little snacks here and there crisps, biscuits, banana or drink and that cycle repeats itself I eat to many crisps I properly haven't eaten a good dinner for 3 weeks since I went to my fiancés family for dinner. I haven't had any money coming in since last year October when I got sacked from my job due to my illness I applied for DLA last July since being diagnosed to see what would happen since had no joy then this month applied for ESA am awaiting an outcome but don't think that's going to work I am not the person to take money from anyone including my mum or my fiancé. Its just adding to the downslide of my depression I have no idea what's going on I even hate bothering my family with my depression so I bottle it all up and just end up snapping and getting aggressive with anyone.
It hurts being like this when I see other 18 year olds and they can do anything or even earn anything they like I see others like my friends who waste there life with drink drugs what ever and there's me wishing for their life, so I just turned to everyone on here because I know the support you will give would be overwhelming
Soz for going on so much