3 cycles into my new chemotherapy I developed a cough. The oncologist thought it would be a good idea to X-ray me incase I had an infection. This led to a CT Scan, the results I received yesterday. My husband and I are still numb with the news. I had been put on antibiotics and the cough had improved so we were convinced it was an infection. The scan has show extensive further tumours in my left lung. The cancer has spread into my right lung and also is now in my bones. A whole year of chemotherapy, feeling pants, all for nothing. The second pluerodesis operation was a success and the lung drain is still working, the fluid being drained every other day is less but the cancer is on wheels and nothing we seem to throw at it is working.
The oncologist cannot believe that the person sitting in front of him is the same persons scan as the two just don't fit. On the outside I look perfect, whilst on the inside I am a train wreck.
I have, as I am sure we all have, so very much to live for. I want to see my daughter through school, see her graduate, get married, spend endless time with my husband. I have so much fight in me and just need a little bit of luck on my side.
If anyone has any ideas on what i can try, no matter how obscure, diets, trials etc., I am willing to give it a go. Life is so awfully short, the clock is ticking very fast and my time is running out. Any help is welcome.
With hope, Tallulah x