Hello everyone, I am just writing a post as I wanted to see if I am alone in this and whether anyone has any suggestions to help. I will give a bit of a backstory to this.
I had mild asthma from the age of 13 however it wasn't serious enough that my parents never took me to get diagnosed. Fast forward to mid pandemic, I try to do some running and I find that my breathlessness had continued since my teenage years, I contact my GP and am told that they can't do any tests as it relies on the physicians being in contact with air droplets (fair enough) and that I had been fine for years so to wait and to call back when it is over, (very encouraging).
I then catch covid, I had only had 1 vaccine at the time so it didn't lessen the symptoms. I was wiped out for 2-3 weeks and when I finally got back on my feet my breathing wasn't normal, I thought that the GP couldn't do anything about it because of what I was told before (I should have called and checked). 1.5 years later, my breathing is still not better but worse and I can't do any form of exercise/laugh without wheezing so I decide to go back to the GP practice (I had changed GP practice by now).
The nurse sends me away with a peak flow metre and a chart to jot down my results for 4 weeks without a relief inhaler. In this time I get exposed to a chemical irritant at work and get hospitalised with a life threatening asthma attack, I was informed by the paramedics that my GP practice had failed me. I then get put on preventative inhalers and have another asthma attack 6 months later which renders me not able to go to my work for a week, I go to my asthma nurse and get told that I just need to up my preventative then go back down to what I was on before (bare in mind there was no trigger for this that I could find). I took their advice but the dose I was on before didn't work so I stuck with the higher dose. 2 months later I have an asthma attack at work because the heating broke and I was working in a 6 degree lab for hours. I go to the GP and get steroids, I then developed pneumonia and have been off work for a month and had steroids, antibiotics and a chest x-ray.
I am slowly getting back to work now but have been getting very anxious when it is cold outside or I smell anything strong (lab chemical, petrol, perfume, cleaning products) or I laugh. The anxiety makes my chest tighter and then I spiral. I am finding it really hard to rationalise myself out of my panics as I have been hospitalised and had pneumonia and I feel like my asthma just isn't under control yet.
I guess I just wanted to see if anyone else has had a similar experience with post asthma attack anxiety? I feel like I can't enjoy my life anymore and just want to stay home where I can control what I am exposed to. Sorry for the long post!